You Gotta Believe in Yourself!

Tonight, I took the first steps toward become a healthy person: Julie and I went on a walk/jog around my neighborhood for 25 minutes then did one hour of Tae Bo. It was the hardest physical thing I have ever had to do in my life! I was BURNIN' UP! We're going to try and do this at least three times a week to keep our bodies goin' strong. I really hope that I stick to it this time. I think, though, that because I have someone doing it with me it will help to keep me motivated. I should be sleeping right now but I can't fall asleep yet... I really would love to wake up early tomorrow to actually eat breakfast for the first time in probably six months to a year! I want to be healthy! I'm sick of being so weak and getting sick all the time. No fun!

Anyway, I am in this weird state at the moment. It's like adrenaline mixed with exhaustion which is causing my brain to explode and send uneccesary worries and thoughts into my brain. I don't want to think anymore. Turn off, brain! Let me sleep!

I've also decided that starting now I am going to be hyper weird random Caitlin whenever possible. I'm bored of my current personality. Time to switch to my older model. Goin' vintage.

Ahh... weird sounds outside. Dogs barking. SCARED! Don't eat me Boogie Man!

Come On, Eileen

I'm currently listening to a playlist made by a guy who was born in the 70s. It is probably one of the best playlists I've ever listened to. I also look like a hippy right now... I am positive I was born in the wrong era.

Yeah, these rock. These make one go from zero to hippy/pocahontas in 3.5 seconds.

GOOD SONG:

Two of Us
by The Beatles

Two of us riding nowhere
Spending someone's
Hard earned pay
You and me
Sunday driving
Not arriving
On our way back home
We're on our way home
We're on our way home
We're going home

Two of us sending postcards
Writing letters
On my wall
You and me burning matches
Lifting latches
On our way back home
We're on our way home
We're on our way home
We're going home

You and I have memories
Longer than the road that stretches out ahead

Two of us wearing raincoats
Standing so low
In the sun
You and me chasing paper
Getting nowhere
On our way back home
We're on our way home
We're on our way home
We're going home

You and I have memories
Longer than the road that stretches out ahead

Two of us wearing raincoats
Standing solo
In the sun
You and me chasing paper
Getting nowhere
On our way back home
We're on our way home
We're on our way home
We're going home

We're going home
Better believe it

Smirks from Passersby

I'm not completely positive that "passersby" is the correct term but, if not, so be it. I have invented another Cait-ism.

At the moment I am listening to my new Fleet Foxes album, recently purchased from iTunes. I adore them all of a sudden. I had heard of them in the past and I believe I illegally acquired Mykonos at some point but then never really listened to it and so it consequently got deleted. Either that or I am talking out of my big toe and I had never heard it before yesterday. Moving on, I love Fleet Foxes and very much adore Mykonos. Their harmony is to die for and the imagery of their lyrics is vivid and beautiful.

That's my review for the day.

I went to my two favorite classes today: World Religions and English. I decided that I wanted to put on my brave mask and try a funky outfit to try and get me to come out of my shell a bit at school. It worked! First of all my outfit wasn't that weird but I was wearing these awesome moccasin boots that have fringe all over them and my hair was wavy and had a braid across the top and my jewelery was all natural-looking and such. I said to someone later, "I guess I was going for the Pocahontas look." Not really but it made that someone chuckle. Anyway, when I first walked onto campus every person that even noticed me at all took one look at my shoes and smiled as they walked by. It was funny. Then I got to World Religions and during discussion I swear my alligator-boot-wearing instructor could not stop looking at my shoes. Love it. Perhaps he wants to add them to his weird shoe collection because, no joke, I have seen these alligator boots in three different colors in the course of two weeks. Awesome. Later on, I went to my English class and right when I sat down a kid in my group looks me up and down and goes, "Sweeet..." I looked at him funny and ask what he is referring to and he said, "Just... you're whole ensemble today." I laughed and said thanks. First time I actually had a "conversation" with someone in my English class. I even had to get up in front of the class today with a group and read something we had collectively written outloud and I didn't read too fast, I didn't turn red... it was miraculous.

I have thus concluded that I need to dress a bit on the unique side everytime I want to be comfortable with myself. It sounds backwards but it worked today! Whatever works, I am completely open to it.

"You gooooooooo wherever you go today..... You goooooo todayyyyy....." Gosh, this song is magnificent. That's Mykonos by the way.

OK, my drowsy cold medicine is finally kicking in full-force. Time for slumber.

My Name is Echo

I just screamed really loudly into cyberspace and all I heard were echoes. I don't think anyone actually reads this blog. I don't care really. If you do, cool. No one commented on my N. Korea thing... makes me think that it's 1984 and you're all afraid Big Brother is going to arrest you if you do.

Anywho, I've decided just now that if someone were to call me by my blogging name my nickname would be Sophie. That would be sweet. Stop calling me Caitlin, it's becoming overused in my world. All I hear day in and day out is "Caitlin, Caitlin, Caitlin." Wouldn't it be awesome if we got to change our names depending on our moods? Kinda like the update things on Myspace and Facebook. Today Caitlin is: Bob.

I miss being Bob. I was a Bob once, you know. No, I was not literally a different person and ABSOLUTELY NO, I was not a male at any point in my life. In my theater class there were two Caitlins so my teacher asked me what I would like to be called instead. I said, Bob. It stuck through two years of theater.

I have class in an hour and I still haven't left my house. Booooo....... Which reminds, me that I've started calling my dog Blooblee. Her real name is Lucy but that's become boring and overused as well. Now she is Blooblee. Say it outloud, it's fun.

Names are fun. I like calling my friend Jublie instead of Julie. I think it's the B sounds that get me. Add a B to a person's name and it's automatically hilarious. Caitblin. See? Hilarious right?

OOOOKay.... I suppose I should leave for class. Sorry for wasting 8 years of your life. I'll try to be more exciting next time.